Thursday, January 04, 2007
sigh.. i reali hope u'll let me go.. n tt u'll truely b free fr dis pain n hurt i've caused u.. 1 day u'll let me go de.. sometimes in life u need 2 noe when to let go.. den life wun seem so terrible 2 live...
sigh..suan le..i oso dun noe wat more 2 tell u le.. u noe i wun be tt hard hearted.. but 1 ting i wan 2 get dis clear.. i wun get soft hearted le.. dis time im sure of wat i want.. of my decisions.. so..... u reali have 2 let me go.. i dun wan 2 hurt u anymore... not worth it man..
haix..change topic ba.. 2day came sch veri veri early..cos mum need 2 reach work earlier..sian..den stand there make me wanna slp more..lol..end up givin up 2 wait for ht and e rest..lol..sorry wor.. yeap.. end up pei daphne go mac 2 buy her breakfast n i bought a hashbrown myself..lol..nicenice.. ^^
oh ya! ytd i went gymin session wif -poing.. *so cute tt name lol* i finally manage 2 jog 2.4km without stopping sia!! so happy!! haha..though veri slow la..but yeap..still happy! jogged 20mins non stop..but den i realise tt when i jog slowly my injured leg wun get pain tt fast..lol..so next gymin session muz jog slowly le!! den slowly increase speed..lol..yeap..so fun 2 go gym.. hehe..den chat a lot wif -poing.. yeap..thx girl 4 keepin me company ^^
to some1: thank you for being so understanding..!! yeap.. i'm reali very very touched.. by both ur action n words.. =)
ah yen: thx for keepin me company on new yr's eve..lol..found out so much tings both fr e past n present.. ^^ im glad we're startin 2 share again.. ^^ ur frdship means a lot 2 me!
hwee: hope u'll get well soon!! ^^ ytd lunch was great though didnt get 2 talk tt much.. muz drink more water hor!! yeapyeap =)
thinking of you @ 12:16 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
all i can say now is... I'm truely very sorry... i noe sayin sorry wun make ur pain go away.. mayb i was in the wrong not to tell u when my feelings started to fade.. i noe its not fair 2 juz end us like tt aft 3yrs 10mths of the rs.. but, if i dun end now, it'll b more unfair to you.. you'll onli hurt and fall harder.. so plz.. plz try 2 accept dis fact can? by accepting, the pain n wounds would slowly lessen.. i noe im e 2nd most dearest person u've lost.. you survived thru e 1st 1.. im veri sure u'll be able to survive thru this..
maybe i've prolonged the break too long le..tt's y now tings become like that.. but our fate ends here le.. i noe i told u that you got the right 2 woo me back... but i got the right to reject.. im sorry tt i've become so heartless..but tiredness made me become like this.. if u truely regret it now, den learnt fr it ba.. dun make e same mistakes.. n if u reali still love me.. den let me go ba.. let me lead e life i want.. tt way tings wun be that awkward btwn us.. truely loving me does not mean u need 2 have me.. it means to let me b happy.. i noe i sound veri evil... but ya...
ytd was e day we ended... im truely sorry... tt i've hurt you so deep.. i noe u so long i've nv seen u tt upset n hurt.. i feel guilty.. but if i dun do it..u'll onli hate me even more..... those feelings i feel now is not out of love.. its out of guilt ba.. so reali dis time... its time 2 let go n for u 2 move on wif ur life.. to find a beta some1.. whom will feel that u reali cherish her cos i believe u've reali learnt ur lesson le...
take lots of care...n i reali mean n pray tt u'll live well... for urself.. n ur fam cos i noe they reali reali care a lot for u...
thinking of you @ 5:27 PM
